Tough Times

"In my darkest time, it's just enough to know you're there." -Jimmy Eat World



While that song is in no way of Christian origins or influence; it is a simple reminder of how good it is to have a God who stays close. My good friends already know about the problems between my dad and I, but writing about my struggles helps think through the decisions that inevitably come with hard times. The decision on the table today is whether or not I need to move out of my house. I'll say up front that I think moving out would be the best decision for myself and my family right now, but I'm not 100% sure and I'm waiting for a definite answer from Jesus right now.

The reason I'm being forced to make this decision is because my relationship with my dad is at it's breaking point. I have become my dad's favorite target when he's having a stressful week, and now the stress level in my home is at an all-time high. My dad and I no longer have conversations, we can't talk to each other without him getting offended or yelling at me, and I feel like he has unfair expectations for me. The pressure that I feel when I'm home is unreal, and I spend most of my time trying to figure out how I can avoid my parents. I'm finding out that I can't handle being my dad's scapegoat any longer, and the extra stress involved takes a serious toll on my ability to focus and my schoolwork. Like I said above, I still don't know if I'm supposed to move out, but I don't know how I'll be able to make it through this summer living at home. Please pray for me...

~Matt