Another Seven Days, Another Set of Challenges

I'm trying to find the words to describe the last seven days of my life, but this week was much to complicated to simplify with just a couple words. God has challenged just about every area of my life this week, and He's wearing me out! This race that I usually refer to as life has changed from the speed-walking marathon into the steeplechase.

God has been doing a lot of work in my heart lately, and this week He really challenged my willingness to remain single. I am not looking for a relationship right now and I have no intentions of being in a relationship for quite some time. Unfortunately, I'm still human and it just so happens that I'm lonely. God used this week to remind me that even though I am lonely, I don't need to be in a relationship to fill that void in my life. All I need is God, and all He wants is all of me. Besides, I'm not alone by any means. God has given me a couple of amazing friends, and I can't even begin to describe how thankful I am for them. Melanie and Jim, thanks for always being there for me; you two are the best.

Another area that God is addressing in my life is my relationship with my dad. I mentioned in my last post that it's been getting much worse, and I gotta be honest and say that it's as much my fault as it is my dad's that we don't get along. I hold a lot against my dad, and I am unfair to him as a son. I guess I have a hard time believing that he cares about me now since he never seemed to in the past, and even though I love him, I just can't stand being around him. There is a lot of healing that needs to take place between us, and I don't know where to begin because he and I don't even talk anymore. Please continue to pray for our relationship...We're both very stubborn and prideful, and even though we both make efforts to reconcile; things never seem to get better.

God is so good.

~Matt