I Have Some Splainin` to Do

Ok, so I feel bad about the bitterness expressed in my previous post. Sorry, Valentine's Day in general is just a very hard day for me, and this year it is especially hard. I have a broken heart, and today has been helpful for the healing process, but it has hurt so badly. There is a weight on my shoulders that I know only Jesus can take off, but it seems like He's only taking a little bit off at a time. I'm really struggling and I feel so alone. I'm thankful for my friend Jim because he is going to come over tonight just to hang out with me. I think he knows how much I need it right now; I haven't actually spent time with anyone in over two weeks. I feel awful that he is spending Valentine's Night with me and not his girlfriend, but selfishly I don't want to be home alone tonight. I know that I'm never alone because Jesus is here, but after so long without intellectual, face-to-face, human interaction, I feel so alone. Jesus and I have had a good day together. I had a stressful class and a hard night at work, but He gave me the strength to endure. Valentine's Day has always been a very hard day for me, and today was no exception. This year I had Jesus by my side though, and that made is bareable.

"Can your heart endure, or can your hands be strong in the days that I will deal with you? I, the LORD, have spoken and will act." ~Ezekiel 22:14

~Matt