Valentines Day is only a few days away, and this year has been so much different than any other Valentines Day for me. I've never felt lonely around this time of year, but this year has been a struggle. My lack of a social life and the stress from my busy schedule are causing serious anguish inside of me, and I don't understand it. There are so many thoughts going through my head this week, and I can't help but wonder how different life could be. I know that God has me right where He wants me to be right now and I love what He is doing in my life, but even with Him so close; I feel so alone. I have always viewed Valentines Day as an excuse of a holiday created by the greeting card companies to make an extra buck after Christmas, but something seems different this year. Something inside of me longs to have someone to send a Valentine too, but I know that these feelings are misplaced and inappropriate. So, once again, I will spend my twentieth consecutive year as a single man, and I will not be sending any Valentines. Right now I have my Jesus to hold onto, and that is all I need.
~Matt
I'm praying for you, best friend. My heart is aching this year too. I know without a doubt that God wants us only for Himself this Valentine's Day. And I have discovered over the past several years that, at least for me, it is a wonderful day with Jesus. I love Valentine's Day. :-)
ReplyDeleteAnother thought for you to consider though. In Genesis God talks about how it isn't good for man to be alone. I think that in some ways, your longings might be part of what God has created in you. But for right now, He's asking you to look to Him to fulfill that (and of course He always will) and He may also be preparing your heart for what He has ahead. Maybe I'm wrong, but thought that might encourage you a little. :-)
Thank you. I really needed the encouragement today. I plan on giving Valentines day completely to Jesus this year and I know that even though it will be a hard day, it's going to be a wonderful day with Jesus.
ReplyDeleteYou're right, and I guess it is natural to have these feelings. I just wish that I didn't have them because it makes everything so much harder. All the other years I've at least had my other single guy friends to hang out with, and it was good because none of us wanted to be in a relationship. I know that this year is for the Lord, and I'm not pursuing a relationship until He tells me too, but something inside of me wants to have someone. I've never wanted to be married more than I do right now. I think you're right that God is preparing my heart right now, and I think that is what He is preparing me for. Thank you for encouraging and reminding me to rely on Jesus. =)
I really am right there with you... I do understand, even though it's from a different perspective. The Lord knows your desires and your heart. He has perfect timing for you to be married and is preparing you into exactly the kind of husband you need to be. Your wife will be so blessed. :-) I'm praying for you as you wait for her and pursue God's perfect timing.
ReplyDeleteI really do appreciate your perspective, and I know that you understand where I am at better than anyone else in my life does. I really do trust that God's timing is perfect, and I can't wait to finally be the right man for whoever my wife is going to be. I'm praying for you too, and I completely understand how hard it is to wait on the Lord right now.
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