Back on The Narrow Path

Well, it has been a little while since I last posted anything here on The Narrow Path, but that is partly because I have not been walking on the narrow path. In fact, I have been avoiding it like the plague here lately.

I am not the type of person to blame the people around me or my surroundings for my problems. I usually take the responsibility for the things going on in my life with the understanding that God allows things to happen in my life, and my circumstances are a direct result of my thoughts and actions. For instance, the reason that I have not been on the narrow path (Mt. 7) is because I honestly just got burnt out on Biblical studies for a few weeks. Writing exegetical papers, non-stop, for months on end, wears me out. I thought I would be alright taking a few weeks off from the intensive study schedule that I maintain, but instead, I collapsed spiritually. God's Word is what sustains me, and without a healthy dose, I become weary and quickly lose my way. Lost is what I have been the past couple of weeks, but I think I am finally coming back around. At least now I have the desire to seek the Lord; whereas, a couple of days ago I wanted nothing to do with "spirituality".

All that to say: Yes, I am going to get back on the Narrow Path, and I am going to try to blog the things that God is teaching me via verses, dreams, or however else He chooses to speak into my life. I still have a few issues in my life that I struggle with every day. I know they are not of the Lord, but I currently do not understand why these things continue to burden me. I will not discuss all of them in full here on my blog; however, they will be mentioned. The one that is bothering me the most right now, and has been since I was sixteen is insomnia. I do not know why I cannot sleep, and I wish that I could. My lack of sleep affects many areas of my life, and it keeps me from being myself. I hate this problem, and I do not know why I have to struggle with it, but I know it is just one more reason to follow God diligently. Only He can deliver me from my circumstances, and I trust that He will some day.

-Matthew